On February 11th, two years ago, a significant chapter of my life unfolded when I met my first girlfriend.
The story of how I proposed to her back then is rather amusing. At that moment, a plethora of questions swirled in my mind, pondering the right and wrong of it all. Is she the one for me? Am I right for her? Will she be happy with me?
These were just a few of the many questions that plagued my thoughts. The emotions were entirely novel to me. The first time she touched me, the initial glimpse of her smile, and that captivating moment when our eyes locked for the first time left me feeling both thrilled and apprehensive.
The first time she took my hand, I was taken aback and, I must admit, a little frightened. It seemed like I didn't quite appreciate the gesture, and I inadvertently let go of her hand.
However, a force within me urged my soul to grasp her delicate hand once more.
Our fingers interlocked perfectly, and the warmth of our joined palms created a sensation we both experienced for the very first time.
She smiled and nestled her head on my shoulder. It was incredibly soothing, and at that moment, I realized that I had a responsibility to ensure her smile endured forever.
It's been a year since we parted ways, and while it wasn't easy, I've come to terms with it.
She had her reasons, and I understand that her absence left a void. Nevertheless, I've made peace with being without her. Perhaps in moments of anger, I've uttered words I shouldn't have, venting my frustration about our relationship and her departure.
Yet, when I look at my reflection in the mirror, I find gratitude for the person I've become. I'm thankful for her presence in my life, the time we shared, and the beautiful memories we created. I harbour no regrets about our journey, the love we shared, or even our parting ways.
Through it all, I've come to understand her as a person, and I genuinely respect her and the choices she's made.
She might have been a little peculiar, sometimes making unwise decisions and failing to cherish the moments that truly mattered. Nevertheless, she will always hold the special place of being my first girlfriend.
Life, as we all know, is filled with its ups and downs. At this moment, we may be experiencing a downswing, but I firmly believe that something great awaits us in the future. I know how she is at present; I see the life she leads behind that façade of a fake smile, and I understand that we won't be reuniting.
And you know what? It's okay, just the way it is.
So, I want to express my gratitude for everything we shared, and I hope that someday, she can genuinely smile with all her heart.