I dated a guy for six years. We broke up quite recently. I’m still madly in love with him though. I miss having him around; his smile, his beautiful eyes and just the way he cared for me and loved me. He was very loyal and extremely loving. He was everything a girl could ask for. I respected and adored him.
We were what people call, “couple goals”. Things changed when he moved back to his hometown. He would be busy, day and night and would get frustrated with me and spoke to me quite rudely. I really missed him. I would cry myself to sleep every single day. I always wore the bracelet he gave me, just to feel him around me. He was my everything. I had never loved someone the way I did, him. He was my everything. I had never loved anyone so much!
We would laugh, cuddle and just sit together, talking for hours on end when we were together. But we never got a chance to discuss the issues going on between us. He would go back and again, the fights would begin. I would be so heartbroken to see him sad and stressed. I didn’t know what to do. I would pray day and night for his wellness. I would wear his shirt when I missed him, but I never told him this.
I would pray day and night for his wellness. I would even wear his shirt when I missed him, but I never told him this. Never did I imagine that me wanting him and wanting his love and support would cause him to hate me and our relationship.
One day, I decided to introduce him to my mom, not as a friend, but as someone I was in love with. I wanted to tell him how much I loved him, to show him how important he was for me. I wanted to tell him how much I craved for that smile that I hadn’t seen in such a long, long time. I was struggling too, but I never thought of giving up like this.
The reason I stayed with him was that I loved him so much and I knew that I wouldn’t ever find a soul as good as his. I wanted to give him an amazing life, but what breaks my heart is that he left me because he thought I didn’t value him.
I wanted things to go better. I wanted to make him feel the love that I had for him; I didn’t know it was this that suffocated him. It wasn’t easy, watching him move on that quickly. I wish he could see how badly he was breaking my heart, to see those pictures of him and his new girlfriend.
I just want him to know that no one will ever love him as much as I have loved him. No one will accept you, with all your flaws the way I have. No one will ever care for you like I have. I could never show it. But believe me, I was crazy about him. I just wish he had told me that my love was suffocating him. I hope he’s happy. I hope that someday, he wakes up in the morning and realises what he’s lost.
My dear junior, I hope you know we did have a love that was true between us, but it was the distance that broke us.