When I Asked Myself Who Am I Most Scared Of, The Answer Uncovered An Uncomfortable Reality
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I am a thinker. So last night as I slept quite late, I had ample amount of time to think. Random thoughts started popping up. Suddenly, a question popped up.
What kind of people am I scared of?
As an answer to it, first thing to pop up; pervert and criminal minded people and that's for obvious reasons. Secondly, people who forgive but don't forget and hold grudges in their heart but pretend that they have forgiven and everything is fine.
I would like to elaborate on this point. I am a person who forgives and forget. I keep it for god to do the judgement. I understand that we are humans and we tend to commit mistakes. Then we learn from our mistakes and try not to repeat. But yes, some things are unforgiving. In such cases I walk away from that person forever.
In this journey of life, I have come across many people who do the same thing as I do and many others who neither forget nor forgive and some who forgive but never forget. I feel everyone is right in their own way but I am really scared of the ones who hold grudges deep inside their heart.
Here I want to give an instance from my life. Few years back I, with permission from my husband invested some money of his in a small business. But the business failed. I felt very sorry about it and apologised to him. I was very broken and my confidence shattered. To this my husband said its okay, such things happen. I shouldn't give up and just keep going.
His words were very comforting and helped me move on. But I realised wherever we had and argument he would come up with this and make me feel like a failure forever. This actually stops me from starting any new venture. The fact is that he has never forgiven me for the loss but pretends he has.
Okay now thirdly, I am scared of people who have so much hatred for you in their heart but they pretend to love you.
Here again I have an instance to share from my life. My husband keep saying that I am the best thing that happened to him and then he also says I have never ever given him any happiness. You know this makes me confused. Can't decide if I should stay, so that I remain the best thing that happened to him or should go so that someone else who can keep him happy enters his life.
Anyway, honestly I term such people hypocrites and they really scare me a lot. So here, if anyone can relate to this I would like to advice, stay away from these categories of people.
