I Went Against My Parents To Marry My Husband And Now That My Mother Is No More, I Regret It Every day
I am a girl who was born in a very broad minded family but got married to a very narrow minded man.
Hi! this is Rani (name changed). I was very happy as I got what I wished in my life, earlier. Then I met a man on fb whom slowly I got attracted to when I was in 11th class. Then days, months and years went on. My parents never said yes to this relationship because of cast system.
But, I still believed in myself and married him against my parents wishes. Day by day, everyday I realised that love marriage is beautiful but marrying a man like him was the worst decision of my life. He used to flirt with other girls, get physical with other girls and in return, if I would ask "agar mai tumhari jagah hoti to kya karte tum" and every time his answer was "tere ander kuch jana hai and mere ander se kuch jana hai".
Hum kaise samaj me rehte hain, jaha ladka galat kare to theek agra ladki kare to galat? I can proudly say, I am educated, beautiful but still every time he made me realise how he is not good for me. He does not deserve me.
My son is 5+ now and still the condition is same. No one is there to share my pain. Neither my parents nor him. I am physically and mentally tortured every day. I don't want my son to grow up without his father.
I am educated, but still I don't have a penny. I do 8-4 job and take tuitions till 7 then do the household chores. If I cry, that's my mistake. If I ask something, then I am bad and other girls are much better than me.
The torture is getting to my head day by day. I have attempted suicide thrice, but still god gave me life for my son. But now, I am totally tired of this fu#*ing life. Tired of him and tired of everything. I miss my mom so much, who is not alive. I wish every day that I should have listened to them once.The torture is getting to my head day by day. I have attempted suicide thrice, but still god gave me life for my son. But now, I am totally tired of this fu#*ing life. Tired of him and tired of everything. I miss my mom so much, who is not alive. I wish every day that I should have listened to them once.