Right from childhood I am a very reserved and introvert girl. My family is also conservative. I belong to a big family but not a joint family. There are many cousins.

Three years ago, I met one of my cousin brothers. We had never met in childhood that's why we don't treat each other like typical sister and brother. He is 3 years elder to me. We have blood relation or you can say he is first cousin and we have the same family and same surname. We talk regularly for hours and meet once in a week or twice in a month. He is like my best friend. I share everything with him.

But now things have changed. I fell in love with him. Even I don't know when and why. We often get physically intimate but never have sex. This intimacy makes me feel more for him.

It's been more than six months that I am trying to hide my feelings. But now day by day it's becoming more difficult for me to suppress my feelings. He doesn't know about anything. Even I have no idea what he feels for me. I thought I should confess but then I realized if I confess and he doesn't have the same feelings, I'll lose my friend too.

But, if I don't confess then it would become more complicated for me. Now I have decided that I won't talk or meet him for a couple of months and I am trying to forget him. I know after a few days he'll ask what's wrong with me but somehow I have to maintain distance from him.

But these feelings for him are killing me inside. I know whatever I have done and whatever I feel, everything is wrong. These kind of relationships are not socially acceptable. I feel guilty but I can't do anything. I am trying to not confess to him and forget him.

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